Life is a bitch....

So I am closing a million dollar deal. I had no idea I was worth so much. I mean I knew I was worth 1.2. 6 years ago. Today my signature alone is worth 3.5. Not counting research or arguments. My wife who works for my bank....stands amazed behind me. I just bought a building for 1.1 million. Been negotiating for months.

My whole life smells of this deal.

It has been long ago photographs, It has been seasons
a long way down this road.
Traces of history
things believed in
passed along the way
a signature worth so much
I am not young enough for this
I can't even pray on my knees
but I am worth this?

My Grandmother told me
Angels sang the day I was born
she asked me everyday what damage I did
what I loved? What was tho color of crusades
Rivers we all jump into...

sunshine drying to 3. 5 million.

But I stood my ground
understood directional freedom
remembered every word ever said
by hero's and sorry newspaper headlines.
mortal lightening never impressed me.
I was the consummate diapered
trust fund baby. I learned young
to say "Fuck You".
I was photographed on stairways.
with mirrors around chasing feelings
announcing today I am what i have always hated.

questions and reasons, reflections of strangers
seeing it happen, forgiveness is to blame
soft as tenderness, along a Stone coast of youth?
A paper is slid to you and by signature?

you become what you loath.